| "Hi hi_im_vince! It's been 1625 (wow, that's a big number) days since you joined Xanga... won't you support us by going Premium?"
No thanks! But I'll support snailbites.com by blogging there...
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| Sorry it had to come to this...
i'm leaving you xanga. im sorry. really.
lately, all the pressure of the relationship to constantly find new happiness has gotten to me. i feel too confined here, too restricted. i need to be free. more room to create. you just cant provide that for me anymore. im sorry...
i will miss you though. you were always there and i appreciate that. you never wavered. i'll miss your friends most especially. it felt like a little community here. but im off to make new friends! you should be happy for me!
im sorry xanga. our lives are just headed in two diferent directions right now and its best to cut it off before it gets too deep. i hope you've learned something from me. i'll see you around. be back soon to grab my old stuff. thanks for the memories...
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| Wow!
It's been i can't remember how long since I've last blogged. i don't know what took me so long. every time i started to write something, i ended up getting distracted and doing something else -- maybe watching old ufc reruns or the nba's greatest games. that or lost.
maybe more than that, i also stepped into a spiritual cave. or maybe even im still stepping into one. today i picked up some more cds and books at family christian bookstore, happiest place on earth (besides payatas). i must've been there for like an hour listening to all the different worship artists, reading their books, getting inside the hearts and minds of all these great men and women whose hearts desire is to give God their lives in song.
then i realized something...
recently, we've been tossing around some songs to play for this upcoming youth conference. the talk goes around -- what's a good song, what's playing in the PI, what's a good new song, a good old song, noticing that wow we sing alot of hillsongs, what haven't we played in a while, etc etc etc.... and while all that is good and well, and by all means very important, today i took a step back and asked myself a very important question.
is our worship guided by the songs we pick, or is our worship guided by His glory?
is our worship for our own enrichment or is our worship solely for His glory? because His glory, his majesty, his power should be the standard any time we open our mouths! every song, any song, anything we sing to God should be so important. we should, no -- we absolutely need to see the glory of God in every single worship, in every single conference, every camp, every meeting; anything we do should reveal the glory of God.
in getting mentally/physically prepared for this year's conference season, i've been going through the motions and trying to visualize it. i know i'm gonna sing now that you're near, i know i'm gonna sing here i am to worship. and now im realize that wow, i'm all wrong. i should be saying to myself, how can we shine God's eternal and infinite majesty to those 2000 youth that will assemble in houston. how can we assemble this arena, this venue, this conference, so that God can be glorified?
to me, there is a deeper level of worship that we need to find. its a level that we haven't hit yet. and im taking my steps into this spiritual cave if u will, to hit the books and pray for this direction. i feel that this year is the year that our community will change forever. this is the year that cfc youth will finally grow up. and for good.
this is my mission, my heart's desire.
"when we face up to the glory of God, we find ourseves facedown in worship..."
-- matt redman |
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